A friend of mine who'd wrestled with major depression told me that when he finally crashed and entered the hospital, he spent the first several days sleeping on the floor of his room. His comment was, "Icarus had fallen." You may recall that Icarus was the Greek god who flew too close to the sun, melting his wings of wax and feathers. His fall has become a symbol for many who've been driven to the ground by painful circumstances.
More recently another friend was reflecting on the strange awareness that life was continuing to go on around her, unaffected by the difficulties with which she was confronted. She expressed a connection to Auden's poem about the fall of Icarus. Auden references the painting by Breughel (below) in which business is continuing as usual while Icarus, barely noticeable, sinks into the sea.
There are indeed times in life when we are almost forced to acknowledge that our personal stories have such little impact on the world around us. This can be, of course, incredibly distressing, but it can also offer an important step towards letting go of the need to be noticed.
Musee des Beaux Arts
W.H. Auden
About suffering they were never wrong,
The Old Masters; how well, they understood
Its human position; how it takes place
While someone else is eating or opening a window or just walking dully along;
How, when the aged are reverently, passionately waiting
For the miraculous birth, there always must be
Children who did not specially want it to happen, skating
On a pond at the edge of the wood:
They never forgot
That even the dreadful martyrdom must run its course
Anyhow in a corner, some untidy spot
Where the dogs go on with their doggy life and the torturer's horse
Scratches its innocent behind on a tree.
In Breughel's Icarus, for instance: how everything turns away
Quite leisurely from the disaster; the ploughman may
Have heard the splash, the forsaken cry,
But for him it was not an important failure; the sun shone
As it had to on the white legs disappearing into the green
Water; and the expensive delicate ship that must have seen
Something amazing, a boy falling out of the sky,
had somewhere to get to and sailed calmly on.
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